FKA Twigs says she suffered panic attacks following her allegedly abusive relationship with Shia LaBeouf.
The British singer for the first time fully talked about the ‘fear and shame’ she felt during her nine-month romance with the actor.
And she revealed that she only had the courage to leave LaBeouf after calling an abuse helpline.
In an interview with Louis Theroux on his BBC Radio 4 podcast “Grounded”, she claimed that LaBeouf forbade her to look other men in the eye – and isolated her from friends and family.
She felt like “the worst person ever” – and thought no one would believe her after bystanders failed to help when LeBeouf allegedly choked her at a gas station.
“I really felt it was impossible to leave, I felt so controlled… it was completely overwhelming,” she said.
The couple met on the set of the movie “Honey Boy” in 2018 and split in May 2019.
In December 2020, Twigs announced that she is suing LeBeouf for sexual assault, assault, and emotional distress.
She told Theroux that “there was an intense honeymoon in the beginning” before LaBeouf’s behavior became offensive.
She said she gradually realized he was becoming more “jealous and controlling,” noting what “little things you could do wrong that could take away the happiness.”
“For me it was being nice to a waiter or being polite to someone who can be seen flirting or [wanting] to have some sort of relationship with someone else when I literally only order pasta and am polite, ”she said.
‘I was told I knew what he was like, and if I loved him I wouldn’t look men in the eye. So that was my reality for well over four months towards the end of the relationship, that I shouldn’t look men in the eye. “
The star said she started looking down at the floor as the couple went out together and began to separate from her friends and family, adding, “I just lived a very controlled and controlled life that I felt was got me into the least trouble. “
LaBeouf – who, as Page Six reported, was banned from all promotion for his latest film, the Oscar frontrunner “Pieces of a Woman,” after the lawsuit – also expected to hit a daily quota of affection, she claimed.
Twigs said, “He said his previous partner met this number very well and I was inadequate … it was 20 touches, 20 kisses a day, reinforcements of my dedication to him and me committed to him, which is exhausting because you can’t of course.
“He would wake me up at night to accuse me of all kinds of things,” she said. “Accuse me of staring at the ceiling and thinking about ways to leave him, he would accuse me of masturbating … [accuse] that I wanted to be with someone else – but it would always be, I would say between four and seven in the morning. “
She was locked up in London trying to recover, as she admitted: ‘For a long time everything that woke me up in the night, even if it was just my dog, or a noise outside, or just going to the bathroom. , it can cause a very intense panic attack. “
She said she ‘lagged behind [post-traumatic stress disorder] out of that, which is again something that I don’t think we really have as a society, just in terms of the healing upon leaving, and how much work that needs to be done to recover, to get back to the person you were earlier. “
A “turning point” came when she called a helpline and was taken seriously, she said, adding that she wanted to be able to tell her daughter she addressed the abuse.
LeBeouf has told the New York Times that many of Twigs’s allegations are untrue, but said he owed her and Karolyn Pho, another woman whose claims appear in the lawsuit, “the opportunity to make their statements public and public. . [for me to] accept responsibility for the things I have done. “
In another statement, he added, “I am not in a position to tell anyone how my behavior made them feel. I have no excuses for my alcoholism or aggression, just rationalizations. “
He said that he has “insulted myself and everyone around me for years. I have a history of hurting the people closest to me. I am ashamed of that history and I am sorry to those I have hurt. Er is nothing else I can really say. “
Page Six has asked LaBeouf for comment.