“As I got older, I started to realize how strange I really am,” Lovato says beaming. ‘For the past year I was engaged to a man, and when it didn’t work, I thought, this is a huge sign. I thought I was going to spend my life with someone. Now that I wasn’t going to do it, I felt a sense of relief that I could live my truth. “
Like many single people in their twenties, she explores this territory through casual dating. And right now, Lovato says, she feels “ too strange ” to be with a cis guy.
“I hooked up with a girl and said, ‘I like this a lot more.’ It felt better. It felt good, “she says.” Some of the guys I dated – when it came time to be sexual or intimate, I would get these kinds of deep-seated reactions. Like, “I just don’t want my mouth there. stop.’ It wasn’t even based on the person it was with. I found that I really appreciated those people’s friendships more than the romance, and I didn’t want the romance of someone of the opposite sex. ”
“I was like, ‘Bitch, you should have trusted yourself.'”
Proenza jacket. Jennifer Fisher earrings. The ring from M Jewelers. Jennifer Fisher ring.Honestly, Lovato took a minute to want romance in general. The new documentary follows that aforementioned 2020 relationship from engagement to breakup; When things were over, Lovato wondered if she could ever open up to someone else again.
“Because I denied my intuition of all the red flags that had surfaced, I was not to blame but myself,” she says. So I was like, ‘How can I ever trust again?’ But really, I was like, “Bitch, you should have trusted yourself. If you had trusted yourself, you wouldn’t have landed in this position.”
When Lovato no longer saw herself as a victim of that situation, she was able to move on. “My heart is quite open,” she says. “I listen very much to my intuition, and that doesn’t mean my limits are or are my guard. It just says that my ears are a little higher and my eyes are a little wider. “
At the end of our 70 minute Zoom call, Lovato’s song “I Love Me” immediately pops in my head. “I wonder when ‘I love me’ is enough?” she asks herself over and over in the chorus, determined to find an answer. And it looks like she’s found one – but it’s more than just loving herself. She is now checking in to herself. Turns up for himself. Block out the noise and follow her instincts.
Whether it’s building her dream cloud room or rephrasing her approach to sobriety, Demi Lovato’s path is finally, completely her own. “Nothing people say or do will really change the way I live,” she says. She is at home for the first time.
Christopher Rosa is the entertainment editor at Glamor. follow him Twitter and Instagram