Justin Bieber opened up about the struggle to be a young pop star and his past drug use, saying in a new interview that his bodyguards would sneak into his room at night and check his pulse to make sure that he was still alive.
“There was a feeling of longing for more. It was like I had all this success and it was still like, I’m still sad and I’m still in pain. And I still have these unresolved issues. And I thought all the success would make everything right. And so for me the drugs were a narcotic just to get through, ” he told GQ magazine.
While Bieber struggled, he had some twists and turns with the law and displayed some erratic behavior. The “Sorry” singer, 27, told GQ that there are people in the industry “preying on the insecurities of others and that angered him.
“And then you’re this young angry person who had these big dreams, and then the world just jades you and makes you this person you don’t want to be,” he explained. And then one day you wake up and your relationships are f —– up and you’re unhappy and you’ve got all this success in the world, but you’re like, well what’s this worth when I’m feeling I still feel empty inside? “
Bieber said he sometimes craved a sense of normalcy throughout his career. The singer described a case where he and his friend hid his passport in the hope that he could take some time off.
The record label is in a panic and says, ‘You have to do the’ Today ‘show next week and you can’t find your passport.’ It takes several days to get a new passport. But I just wanted to do everything to just be normal at the time, ”he said.
Bieber eventually admitted to hiding his passport and went on to perform on the “Today” show.
The singer also opened up to the magazine about his health concerns. Last year he revealed he has Lyme disease.
“To be fair, I’m a lot healthier, and a lot was happening,” he said. “I had mono, and I have Lyme disease. But I also navigated a lot of emotional territory, which had a lot to do with it. And we like to blame a lot of things on other things. Sometimes … It’s often just you own stuff. “
Now the pop star thanks his relationship with God and his marriage to his wife Hailey for helping him on a better path.
“My family life was unstable,” Bieber said of finding love with Baldwin. “Like, my family life didn’t exist. I didn’t have a significant other. I didn’t have someone to love. I didn’t have someone to flow into. But now I have that.”
Of his faith, Bieber said he believes God is “grace” and “every time we screw it up, he picks us up every time.”
That’s how I see it. And so it’s like, “I made a mistake.” I don’t dwell on it. I’m not in shame. But it actually makes me want to do better, ”he said.
