Demi Lovato says that using drugs “almost killed” her while also “saving” her life when she was dealing with suicidal thoughts.
The pop star, 28, spoke about her complicated relationship with substance abuse during an upcoming appearance on Diane Guerrero’s podcast Yeah No, I’m Not OK, telling the Orange Is The New Black actress that drugs served as a “ destructive coping mechanism. ” for her .
‘In the same way [drug use] almost killed me, it saved my life sometimes because there were times when I faced suicidal thoughts, ‘explained the Sober singer, saying it distracted her from her emotional pain.
“ I believe I turned to those coping mechanisms because I was really in so much pain that I didn’t want to die and I didn’t know what else to do, ” she continued, per E! News.
Complicated: Demi Lovato talked about how she used drugs as a “coping mechanism” for all the pain she went through before getting sober. She admitted that her addiction almost ‘killed’ her while at the same time helping ‘save her life’ by distracting her from suicidal thoughts
But Demi was shaken up when she overdosed in 2018, a near-death experience that left the star with permanent brain damage.
Since then, she has developed new ways to deal with her recovery and says she now has “ other tools and resources ” to help, noting, “ I’ve tried my best sometimes. ”
“I know how to act differently and how to act differently so that I don’t have to resort to that behavior again,” she continued.
The former Disney Channel star also told Diana why she’s so open about her past struggles, saying, ‘I’d look at people in the media and compare myself – I don’t feel good enough, don’t feel skinny enough – and wonder why. was that these people were living lives that seemed so perfect, yet I was in so much pain. ‘
Scary: Demi woke up when she overdosed in 2018, a near-death experience that left the star with permanent brain damage
Happy Place: She has since developed new ways to deal with her recovery, saying she now has ‘other tools and resources’ to help, noting, ‘I’ve tried my best sometimes’
And when I got into the spotlight, I was like, ‘Oh, it’s not perfect here, nobody has a perfect life, it just looks like this. ‘
That’s why Demi said she’s keen to tear down the “facade for Hollywood.”
“I’ve tried many identities over the years,” she said.
The sexy female pop star I felt people wanted to be me or the poster child for recovery. And now I embrace the fact that my lack of commitment to a particular identity is not a lack of commitment. It’s just an openness to keep evolving. ‘
Demi will pour out even more of her heart in her upcoming docuseries Demi Lovato: Dancing With The Devil, which premieres March 23.
Facade: The former Disney Channel star said she exposes her soul so others can see that no one in Hollywood is as ‘perfect’ as they seem from afar. She has been seen above at the 20187 Billboard Music Awards
Open Book: Demi will pour out even more of her heart in her upcoming docuseries Demi Lovato: Dancing With The Devil, which premieres March 23.
In a trailer for the play, she admitted that she “ wouldn’t change anything ” about her rocky road to sobriety.
“Everything had to be done to learn the lessons I had learned,” Lovato said.
“It was a painful journey, and I look back and sometimes I get sad when I think about the pain I went through to overcome what I have, but I don’t regret anything.”
“I am so proud of the person I am today,” she continued.
“And I am so proud that people are getting to see it in this documentary and I am so grateful that I had someone by my side.”
Proud: ‘I am so proud that people get to see it in this documentary and I am extremely grateful that I had someone by my side’