Sorry Bachelor education nation, Carly Waddell will no longer see rose ceremonies in her future.
In a new YouTube Q&A, the Bachelor in Paradise alum – who split from Evan Bass after three years of marriage in 2020 – said she would be “embarrassed” to return to the franchise.
‘A lot of people ask me if I want to do another one Bachelor education show, ‘said Waddell, 35, who was originally a contestant on Chris Soules’ season The Bachelor, and appeared on two seasons of Beep, where she met Bass.
“When I think about that, I just start laughing,” added the mother of two. ‘I can’t even imagine walking up to Chris Harrison and something like that, here I am again. I would be so ashamed. ‘
Waddell went on to say that “one of the greatest things” she has learned is to try to avoid repeating the same patterns in her life. “Look how it worked out for me,” she said of her time on the show. ‘That is not true. So that would probably be a bad idea on my part. ‘
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While Waddell noted that she’s in a “better place” than she was after first announcing her split, she’s not ready to date again.
“I can’t even think about that,” she said. “I was so excited to be done and thought about doing it again … I’m terrified.”
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“I don’t even know when I would invite that into my life,” she continued, explaining that she has no intention of opening that door until her divorce is finalized. ‘For me I’m still married until it says I’m not married. And maybe that’s to my disadvantage, I don’t know, but that’s how I feel. ‘
As to whether she could ever see her rejoin Bass, Waddell simply replied, “It takes two to make that happiness, so that’s all I’m going to say about that.”
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Waddell and Bass – who share two children, son Charles “Charlie” Wolf, 1, and daughter Isabella “Bella” Evelyn, 2, announced their divorce on December 23.
“We have made the tough decision to part ways,” they said in a joint statement to PEOPLE. “We will always cherish our time together and continue to have the utmost respect for each other as we focus on what is best for our family’s future. We greatly appreciate everyone’s love and support and kindly ask for the privacy of our respect family as we navigate through this. “