Amanda Kloots shared a vulnerable post about her attempts to stay ‘positive and active’ as she continues to mourn the death of her husband, Nick Cordero, who passed away in July.
Despite her best efforts to make it through the significant loss on her own, the 38-year-old co-host of CBS ‘The Talk opened her decision to seek professional help.
‘Old and new has been tough, extremely difficult for me. I’ve been crying more recently than in a while. I thought Christmas was going to be hard, this was worse, ” she revealed on her Instagram story.
Devastating: Amanda Kloots shared a vulnerable post about her attempts to stay “positive and active” as she continues to mourn the death of her husband, Nick Cordero, who died in July; seen in August 2019
She continued, “I think it’s because when the new year comes you want a clean slate or forget about last year, especially in 2020. But I can’t forget last year and won’t be able to wipe that slate clean.”
Understandably, the single mother, who welcomed her and Cordero’s nearly two-year-old son Elvis in 2019, said she was “ a little scared of what could happen in a year. ”
After going through the motions from the past six months, Kloots explained that everything she went through was “ finally catching up. ”
‘Old and new has been tough, extremely difficult for me. I’ve been crying more recently than in a while. I thought Christmas was going to be hard, this was worse, ” she revealed on her Instagram story
Traumatized: The single mother, who welcomed her and Cordero’s nearly two-year-old son Elvis in 2019, said she was ‘a little scared of what could happen in a year’ (pictured in 2016)
“ I’m finally ready to go to therapy to deal with the trauma, ” she said, after watching the late Broadway star for 94 days for COVID-19-related complications.
Kloots also noted that she reminded others that they are not alone in their grief and that being open about her ongoing heartbreak has helped her heal.
She added, ‘I share all of this as my continued honesty about grief and loss. How it ebbs and flows changes a lot. How it hides and then finds you. How it’s been a trip, not just a week. How it keeps struggling even when I stay positive and active. ‘
After going through the motions for the past six months, Kloots explained that everything she went through “finally caught up”; seen in December 2019
In a painful description, the beauty admitted that her pain made her cry for days, sometimes “two seconds or two hours.”
“You feel so lonely and confused,” she commented sadly. ‘Being honest, acknowledging all of this instead of hiding it, has helped me. I hope it helps you. ‘
Kloots married the Tony nominee in 2017, after first meeting on the set of the musical Bullets Over Broadway in 2014.
Continue: In a painful description, the beauty admitted that her pain made her cry for days, sometimes ‘two seconds or two hours’
Nick was unconscious when he was first hospitalized, and he was initially misdiagnosed with pneumonia.
The Waitress Star later tested positive for the novel coronavirus on April 1.
From there, Nick’s struggles went from one complication to another as he was placed on a ventilator and developed blood clots, eventually leading to the amputation of his right leg.
Gone too soon: During his hard-fought fight, Nick was able to get off the ventilator and wake up from his coma, but the infection left his body and lungs so weak he could never fully come back
He also received a temporary pacemaker and went into a medically induced coma.
During his hard-fought battle, Nick was able to get off the ventilator and awaken from his coma, but the infection left his body and lungs so weak that he could never fully bounce back.
Cordero’s death was announced by his wife in a heartbreaking Instagram post.
Loving Mother: Kloots married the Tony nominee in 2017, after first meeting on the set of the musical Bullets Over Broadway in 2014
God now has another angel in heaven. My dear husband passed away this morning. He was surrounded in love by his family, singing and praying as he gently left this earth, ‘she wrote.
‘I have disbelief and pain everywhere. My heart is broken because I cannot imagine our life without him. Nick was such a bright light. ‘
Amanda explained that Nick was “everyone’s friend, loved to listen, help and most of all, talk” and that he was “an incredible actor and musician.”
He loved his family and loved to be a father and husband. Elvis and I will miss him every day in everything we do, ” said Kloots.
God now has another angel in heaven. My dear husband passed away this morning. He was surrounded in love by his family, singing and praying as he gently left this earth, ”she announced in July; seen in 2017
She went on to thank the medical team that helped her husband through his tumultuous, months-long health struggle.
Despite all this, his wife Amanda remained a beacon of positivity, keeping her Instagram followers updated on his stop-and-start progress every step of the way.
She will start her current job on The Talk on Monday, alongside Elaine Welteroth, who replaces former panelists Marie Osmond and Eve.
New appearance: She starts her current job on The Talk on Monday, alongside Elaine Welteroth, who replaces former panelists Marie Osmond and Eve